Powers of Life

Starting this time,fighting through that dense forest called my mind using my thoughts sword.
But this time I stopped.........doing nothing.........writing nothing.........even think of nothing to write for few minutes.
Just a sweet gentle smile appearing on my lips....Nothing more!
A beautiful thought invaded all my thoughts and dominated the others.

Gazing at this sweet monster, this fierce friend, watching my fingers chasing this dear pen along these lines before letting them ,my fingers of course,play some ballet on my computer keyboard.

And before that sweet minutes came to its end, I kept gazing at that monster friend,
Asking myself,how it could ever happen?How dared I face it?
Then the answer came running along the main road of my mind presenting itself to me blaming me for forgetting,but I swear I've never forgotten.



Have I succeeded in raising the level of your officiousness?
Wanna know what kind of morter it is.
But I don't want you to mock at me.
You will not............Promise.........Okay you got it.


A paper.........Yes, a sheet of paper,not any sheet of course but the one I wanna it to carry a part of my thoughts.

Terrified of facing it.Not sacred from failing.........Never.
Actually what makes me feel a shiver in my backbone is The UNKNOWN.
What will it be like? Good.........Bad.........I don't know.
It's clear that I've done something made me get through that situation coz you are reading some of my thoughts right now.
But how?how had I stopped fearing the Unknown,You must be asking,What an outstanding magical medicine I've taken?


Sorry for disappointing you but nothing of that rubbish in the previous line happened.

Here are what I've done actually they are two steps,

First,I relayed on Allah
Second,I made the greatest of my life
I discovered the power of life


If I start talking about them,I'll end to realize that I became a 70 or maybe 80 aged old man.
But somehow I managed to summarize them in few lines.........






Most of the time,when we do something that fails,we usually seem to know before hand that it most probably will,yet we decide to take that chance however.Life is about taking risks and leaps of faith;that I grant you.Nevertheless,before you do jump,one must exercise,year suitable clothes,take a few practice leaps and measure their results,and buy some really good shoes!
Concerning with me, taking risks is one of the powers I have in my life.
No matter if you took a risk and failed but the matter comes when you fail in the same mistake again.From here I must insist that our fixed resolution is the first greatest thing in our life.



The second greatest thing one can ever have in the world is to have a noble dream, and live your seconds,minutes,hours,days,weeks,months,years and life fighting for it. If it is ever achieved, find another one.
A beautiful dream gives your life meaning and worthiness, and the friendships you find through them are more perfect than any other friendships one may ever find.



The greatest thing ,however,that one can ever have in his life is just to love and be loved in return.
I must confess and insist that it is the most beautiful thing in my life.
There is nothing more beautiful than to have someone there for you,to take care for you,watch out for you,to always see you wonderful regardless of how you really are,and to give you all of that whether you ask for it or not.
Thus,I can not deny that there are some of my friends are just like that.



So,
I decided,even before I start writing this note,to dedicate it,the note of course,to all of you my friends,to your dear sweet warm words which make of more self-confident and give me the energy to be more creative............Thanks for all of you...and Goodbye......

A Letter Grandpa will never read...

Farewell Grandpa
I always had a candle that lit my way
I always had a rose that brightened my day
I always had my rainbow ray
I'll always feel you close though you're far away
Now, the pieces of my heart have started to fall, one by one
In their place will lie the picture of my beloved who is gone

My sweetest Grandpa whom I'll never forget,
Fourteen years have passed full of memories which I must admit.
But suddenly, I woke up to the fact that you aren't there any more.
Clear as it is, I can no longer ignore that your existence throughout my coming years will only be in the core of my heart and in every flower scent.
I never thought the day would come when your memories will fill the place, when I would feel you everywhere but can't see your face, when I would call your name but recieve no replay.
Or when I would face a problem but on you, I can't rely, when I would enter your home and find you no more, when it's time for me to walk alone along the cold shore.

My dearest Grandpa,
Since the time you passed away, I still can't believe........still can't find a cure for my soul to find relief, can't find a solution to life's equation: pain + happiness + love.
I can't bear you won't be there to see my future which ,I'm sure, you would have been extremely proud of.

My beloved Grandpa,
May I call you my rose, which I used to keep in my heart?
Oh! You were always that close. Or may I call you my shining star that always lit my way; that always led me out through every dark bay. You were my guiding angel that kept my mast strong; that helped me against the raging sea.
How can I say so long? I lost my shelter from the rain; I lost the one who taught me how to defeat pain. You went and left me among the crowd and suddenly my life became so drought.

My kindest Grandpa,
From the bottom of my heart, I know I'll miss you. The thing that hurts me most is that I can no longer hug you, see your beautiful smile, feel your tender touch or hear your sweet voice that I long hear so much.

My caring Grandpa,
During your funeral, I searched for you among the crowd. I couldn't believe you were there, wrapped in the shroud, when just few days ago you were with me body and soul. But the time came when your body had to say goodbye to me and ascend to answer God's call.
I always believed you were the best gift God granted me. Now that you're gone, I know our memories will never set me free. And as I turned and left you behind, a sweet memory came to my mind. The last time I saw you, two days before you passed away, you took me between your arms and kissed me as my tears started to descend, the last goodbye you waved me....I later got what it meant.


My heart will forever cry in despair,
For my flickering candle that can no longer flare,
Let me promise you and swear,
Although for the world you no longer exist,
But in my heart you'll forever persist,
You'll always be there at every dawn,
You'll always be my smile through every frown,
You'll always guide me through the unknown,
In every star I'll always see your kind face,
Till we meet ,isA, in the most beautiful place.

Farewell Grandpa.........

In Memorandum

Sometimes we feel sad,we need to find our presence in the happy world.
Sometimes we feel lost,we have to find ourselves among nothing.
Sometimes we are alone,we wanna gather our beloved from the whole world around us,
but Is that possible?!
I don't think so,
Unless..........


Do you know what the word "memorandum" means?
Actually,till a week ago this word didn't make any sense to me untill I became interested in knowing what that word means.
I asked some of my closer people about it,
there are some of their answers:
-"Maybe it is a medicine"
(*Charming to be in the faculty of medicine,isn't it?; where every strange word become a medicine.I'll not be impressed he i woke up tomorrow to find that the word "cat" became a name of a chronic disease and its curing vaccine is named after "dog".)
-"It's a piece of music,I'm sure of that,i've found it one day on your cell phone"
(*Hey,calm down my friend.I know that i have a piece of music named"In memorandum"on my mobile phone but it is actually composed by me ! [It is not totally mine. I've heard it solo piano and re-composed and ,trust me,it's name was "romance001" and its artist was unknown].)
-"It is something concerning with memory"
(*how brilliant?,but so close to the right answer).
At last,one of my friends saved me from these unaimed search. She said,"My grandfather -God bless him- gave me a ring,every time i look at it i remember my grandfather"
(*Yes,that was right,"the ring".It was a good example of a memorandum.


A memorandum is anything makes you remember some events happened previously.It's may be a needle to memorize the first time you hurt yourself or it can be an elephant to memorize your first visit to India.

A Memorandum in my opinion are a combination of "memory" & "random".I mean piles of things recognizes us of piles of events.

We all have memorandums.Noone can bear living without them.Some of us can feel their presence,some can't.But it must exist in our lives.

I,myself,must confess that memorandums are more important for me than having a meal after 100 days of starvation.You can wander in my room, make your eyes flying through it.You will see nothing except MEMORANDUMS.
By having some of them with me every where i go,i never feel alone.Also,when i am unhappy i do nothing more than sitting in my room watching my memorandums seeing the reflection of the pure soul of my childhood appearing,twinkling&smiling to me.Few minutes later, i cry of joy.
The warmth coming from my memorandums, like a lovely sun,force the ice in my soul to melt, let my soul to shine and warm me with pure lovely rays.
When light fall on them, they shine with strong bright white light which can not be defeated by any dark corner in my heart.

They are all my friends,my love,my life.In every memorandum i have a part of my soul preserved.



So,
You must know ,my friend.
If I asked you one day
to give me anything makes me remember you
Anytime.
You must be sure ,trust me, that you are so close to my heart.
And i want
To keep you closer to my heart.
To have a part of my soul preserved inside you.
To see your face anywhere.
To talk to you anytime.


Just to keep you




IN MEMORANDUM.

In the morning light

I wake up to see you standing,
In the morning light.
I reach out to touch you,
but all that I got is a memory...
And yet, I feel you are near.
But my vision is not clear.
Yet, I have your image always in view.
And I'm forever thinking of you....

I feel you watching me quietly,
In the morning light.

I tried to find some peace of mind,
In knowing you're where....
You don't have to care
I take a comfort that you no longer have
to keep living in a world full of pain.
But I ache to see you again.
In the morning light.

On rainy days I sit and think,
of our lost years
The times we spent apart,
just full my eyes with tears.
But fields of colorful flowers and happy butterflies,
Remind me of you and make me smile.
In the morning light.

I walk along our beach and stand there,
In the morning light.
I cherish our memories,
like seeing us flying our kite.
I remember when you caught a fish,
with your hook.
When I was smiling and waving,
In the photo you took.
I can smell your perfume,
from your memories in my room.

Everything I see here,
makes your loss hard to bear.
And I see you everywhere.........

I live now in a still world listening,
In the morning light.
I strain to hear your familiar and fight...
But all that I hear,
is the sound of my tears......
Then from a far place,
comes the slightest trace
of your voice which says:
"I'm all right you see,
And yet I'll always be,,,,,,,,
In the morning light"........